I’m not really into recovery anymore. It’s not that I’ve made it through the gate and no longer have need of recovery – just that I’m not really concentrating on it anymore. I hardly ever go to meetings, I hardly ever read any 12 step material and I hardly ever think of my self as “addicted” any more.
Probably I still am – but my mind shift has moved more into stage two recovery or maybe even three. Whatever that is. Mostly these days I’m losing some of my codependent, people pleasing neediness and just concentrating on living as I am.
I’m not even into “religion” as much as I was. Today for instance, don’t gasp but I didn’t go to Mass simply because I didn’t feel like it. Maybe it was too much Halloween sugar (I did indulge a little there) or maybe it was just plain stubbornness. I don’t feel guilty about it either. Matter of fact I feel like my life is a bit more in control. More stable. I certainly don’t need God any less (not that stupid, yet) but neither do I feel that crossing every “t” and dotting every “i”makes me a Catholic in good standing.
So what am I really into? Writing!
I am finally, at long last starting to make a living as a writer. Not a good living by any means but it’s paying the rent and a few bills. In time I may even be able to eat more than once a day. Just kidding!
I have several ongoing writing jobs and hoping to find a few more. Bit by bit, step by step life is getting better and better.
I’m also into reading!
Hooked on books. Is that my latest addiction or an old one revived? Besides reading anything and everything to do with writing (especially copywriting) I am reading all the books that there was never time for when I was a nun. My favorites are mysteries like John Grisham and Dick Francis. I love reading children’s books and anything else. I’m a regular patron at our library here. o, books, books, I love books!
Last week I went to Florida for an AWAI (American Writers & Artists Inc.). Was over the top awesome. I’m already saving my pennies so I can go again next year.Met a lot of people, heard a lot of good things, got a few new free books about copywriting (wonderful books by the way) and had a great time.
The trip home was almost not. I flew out of Del Ray, Florida to Newark, New Jersey. Everything on schedule, everything on time. My plane was to leave at 5:00 pm. Then I started hearing about airport closure and planes being grounded and I started getting a bit nervous. Thankfully my plane left on time as scheduled just two hours before the whole airport was shut down. Was I ever lucky or what???
So this is where things are at the moment. If you want to keep up with my round about topsy-turvy life I am writing a bit more at PatriciaProctor.com and I hope to be writing even more at my new site – HeavenlyCopy.com
I will try to pop back here a bit more – really I love keeping up with all of you – just for a bit my head and life was scrambling a bit to make a living and wasn’t too much fun to write about!
Life gets in the way of living sometimes . . .