Go with the strength provided by God

Went to Portland today. An unplanned event. My nephew fell from a 12 foot ladder at work on Monday night and broke both of his heel bones. One has a lot of fractures and the other is crushed like an egg-shell. Not good. This morning they wanted him at the hospital – so off we went. I was able to borrow a wheel chair from work which was a HUGE help. Very hard to walk with both heels broken.

All went well – except for trying to find where I had parked the car after I got him into the hospital. Most of you know how directionally challenged I am!

Yes, it was sad. Took me 15 minutes, and asking three different sets of people (all who were very helpful) to find my car and then another ten minutes to find how to get into the  parking lot connected to the building he was in. A maze of tall buildings, narrow streets and assorted parking lots and driveways jutting out from everywhere. But I kept my cool and eventually won that little battle.

Bobby, my nephew, survived his battles (much more difficult that mine) amazingly well. I was impressed as he was in a lot of pain but was still so considerate and positive as he could be through it all. He had lots of tests and Friday we will go back for surgery. Very early. My sister can take him then but I want to go along for moral support. We have to be there at 5:30 in the morning – so we will be on the road very early. Like 3:30. Yikes.

The plan is for me and Pudge to spend the night. We will watch American Idol – go to bed and rise before the rooster even thinks about crowing and head back to Portland

On a positive note about the whole thing, I was able to drive him to the hospital (a distance of 72 miles) because on Monday I decided to get an eye patch. I now drive as a one-eyed bandit. It helps a lot. I had been putting it off because I had read that it can weaken your eye in some cases – but it is much more tiring to close the eye all the time. I was surprised how much it helped!

Note: It is legal to drive with only one eye – as long as there is good vision in the one eye which I do have.

Moving ahead on a lot of things – even if it seems sometimes that I am not. I got 49 “yes” votes for the puzzle site with ten-dollar annual subscription. I had made a decision that I needed 50 votes as a sign that it would be good to go ahead. After some prayer – I decided I would cast my vote in and make it 50. Because I want to do it and that should count as a vote. I’ve also decided that I will send each supporter one of my books as a “Thank-You!” That way we are all giving to the cause!

Well, guess it is time to think about bed. Yawn. Please say a little prayer that my nephew’s surgery on Friday will go well. It is wonderful what they can do these days. He won’t be able to put any pressure on it for three months – but hopefully will be able to be okay after that. Hope.

Oh Hum diddly dum

Trying to figure out why so many days between posting on this blog. The gaps seem to be getting wider and more often. Maybe I’m betwixt and between in my thinking – that will do it.

I am trying to zoom in on where I am on a spiritual level. Sometimes it feels like I’m recreating myself – the who I was yesterday can hardly recognize the who I am today. Maybe it’s like that book “Passages” talks about. I’m not even sure if I even ever read that book but I think it was something about the different areas of our life we go through.

For instance sometimes I think about being nine years old. Who I was then and who I am now are like two different creatures. Maybe in some sort of itsy bitsy way that is what our life might be like even transitioning from this life to the next. We will still have the memories of this life – but our new life will be so different that we can hardly bring the two together.

Just thinking. Don’t expect me to make any sense of it.

This afternoon I was going through a bit of a panic session. Just a few twinges – nothing to be alarmed at but it was that whole notion of trying to figure out where I am in my God walk.

It’s like – Okay – God is or He isn’t. If He is – and I keep putting myself into His hands what do I have to worry about?

But why am I worried then?

Obviously God is.

I totally know that.

And yet – up pops the fears and anxieties – like I have to do everything myself.

Surely I’m not into thinking I am the glue holding everything together?

But the question is – what is my part to play and what is God’s part? How much do I do and how much do I trust God to do? I obviously have to do some things.

Oh well – it will all resolve itself. It always does.

In the meantime – my brother Tim sent me a Kindle book to read this morning. It is a short story science fiction. The author is a friend of his and he is trying to help promote his book. I don’t have a kindle but I was able to download the software for free to read it on my computer. It’s science fiction. It turned out to be really good!

A bit weird reading a whole book on the computer. It actually was a short story rather than a book – but still a bit different way to read. I have been thinking one of these days I will buy a Kindle and so this was kind of a fun way to try it out.

If anyone is into science fiction – the book is only $1.35 if you want a good read by a new author. Touch of Two

I’m reading my book

Yep, that’s what I am doing. Reading my book. I’m not cleaning my house that looks like a war zone or ironing my clothes for work tomorrow, or working on a web site or doing anything but reading my book.

If the world ends in the next few minutes I will just have to stay behind until my book is finished. That’s just the way it is folks. Dale’s book has hit me like a lifeline to my own spiritual journey. I don’t know where my next move is – but it seems like its important that I read this book.

So that’s what I am doing.

I suppose we don’t have books in heaven. A very big pity. I do love good books